It’s been a long journey for me personally in my relationship with God and as a person. The biggest thing that people will know about me is that I’m a Christian- my faith is the front end of who I am so to speak. They will also know that I’m different from most men in the church or just in general. That’s because I’m gay. It’s cause problems within the church for me.
I struggled with depression and when I came out that I was gay, or that I "struggled" with same sex attraction it went down hill for me. I started/ working on this “You’re loved, and you’re wanted” campaign because I see that there’s a problem that the church seems to turn a blind eye and that’s the LGBTQ youth and people committing suicide.
When presented with facts, they don’t have an answer. I’ve actually told someone that “I wanted to die, and that I had reached a point to where I though God would be pleased if I killed myself.” I got no answer back. It’s a continuous fight for me and I’m getting help. But the people that claim to care a lot about me and their response didn’t line up- which intensified things. I wrote Fierce to show people of all faiths or lack of and mainly the church what’s really happening and how words, actions have an impact.
I wrote the story because with everything that I’ve been through and all the darkness I’ve seen, the one constant thing in my life was/ is my faith, and God.
With the current political climate in the country and the fear that’s going around. I also wanted to show people that’s there’s hope- because there is. I am blessed to get to do this with my best friend and his wife- I couldn’t think of a better couple to play Jack and Ashley.
I hope that the film will make people think and wake up and that it opens a dialogue with people to share their own struggles and their own journey through moments of darkness. It’s a fight- and it’s worth fighting to remain alive and to have people around you that you know loves you for you without judgement and with out any fear- that’s worth having and keeping in your life.
Faith- Fierce is a very intense story- but it also has moments where’s its lighthearted and gives you hope and takes a break from the darkness. I know that the church will have an issue with the film, especially because of its topics. But it’s a story worth telling and its a story worth writing about especially in the current climate of our country.
This film is more than just a film. It’s a collection of stories that for many people like me remain untold. They remain untold for so many different reasons. And I want to change that.
It is my hope and my prayer that people that watch this film will have their eyes opened by God and see just how much they’ve hurt people rather than helped. I’m one of the few lucky ones that survived. Yes, I’m blessed but it also came at a cost to me- but it’s worth it. It’s so worth the daily fights. It’s worth all the pain.
